UnBelong

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The harsh gale, ruffling up more than just feathers and engulfing me like icicles piercing cheese, brings me back to the world of mortals. A world which I am supposed to be a part of but then I know that “I UnBelong!”

There has been so much to my life, just like there is to every one else’s, but some where deep down I know, but I can’t explain, that some thing is just not right. It is like a small hole in the prefect Architectural Design so that the building leaks - Taj Mahal, you know there is a flaw but you don’t know what and where.

I set out 8 years ago to build a life and got much more than I bargained for. I did build it but in the process I got a taste of what life might actually be and since then I have wanted to know and this want, this desire is driving me crazy. This desire to find out everything possible about everything there is and also what’s not.

I am a part of this world by the day - Get up in the morning, go to office, work, come back – I Belong – But then comes the night and I am left alone, to wander the streets at odd hours – Trying to find out the meaning in dark corners – I UnBelong. I love walking alone with the knowledge that I am not alone, that something is there which knows everything and it brings me to the edge – to the point where another step and I would get all my answers and then it puts across a curtain of yet another question and leaving me with another night to wander.

The Ruins are amazing, it is said that someone died in here… I wander around the desolated construction site… It is here that I find peace and my mind clears – clears enough to understand what I might have missed during the day. Life is beautiful, it’s got lot to offer and more. You can run and you can hide but you can’t escape. And then a picture of something I saw flashes before my eyes – It was a bloody mess with the words “But I Loved You” Sprawled on a wall with stains of blood giving them a life of their own.

I am Bruised, I am Battered, I am Broken – But I know I will come back to Life – For I UnBelong – Even to Death.